What am I doing? I have no fucking idea. I’m getting caught up in an emotion, and I hate that. It bothers me because I cannot explain it. I’ve tried and it’s pointless. My biggest fear is that none of it will matter…that none of it does matter. I feel caught in the middle of a storm that won’t go away. I wonder if it’s worth it to try anymore. If nothing is going to change, maybe it’s just time to let it go. Then again, I would have done that a while ago if it was so easy.
I wish it was easy. I really do.
Brother,
ReplyDeleteThere was once a sparrow fallen on the middle of the road.
His two scrawny legs up in the air pointing towards the sky.
A horseman was walking past and seeing the bird in this awkward position, alighted from his horse and asked the sparrow
"Little one, why are you lying like that in the middle of the road."
Are you injured?
And the bird replied
"I've heard that sometime today, the sky will fall."
The horseman laughed and said "And you think your scrawny sparrow legs are gonna hold it up? Keep it from falling?"
The sparrow shrugged his shoulders and said
"One does what one can"
Bless you brother,
Love on,
Maithri